I was asked,

"what is the thing you find hardest to trust God with?"

I spent quite abit of time thinking through that.

No, I cannot trust You with my relationships. As much as they all should be built upon You, I just cannot seem to after past failures. I dont understand why You would allow the one I trusted You with the most to collapse. I just dont.

1 John 4:19: We love because He first loved us

I know You did, but I cant. Help me, I am falling but the view is exhilarating.