Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side.

And balancing the whole thing.

But often times those words get tangled up in lines.

And the bright lights turns to night.

Oh how true these words are. The facade we built around ourselfs to shield us, sometimes gets broken down, and we stand in the fury of the surroundings, more brutal than ever. However ridiculous this sounds, sometimes i wish i fell into a coma, and slept for a year or so. It is, after all a form of relieve from the world. But what a ridiculous dream gerald, oh you dim witted asshole.

I think I'm practically screwing up my life now, sigh. Maybe I was better off retaking O levels. Honestly.

Pride, the downfall of all men. And what would make me an exception dear? I dictate my own fall. I direct my own movie, I decieve my ownself. And to who else would I not lie? If to myself I'm not honest.

I wish not to use heavy language, but somehow it keeps popping into my head. Ignore those voices, my dear. Just as you ignore the words of wisdom and the voice of truth. Oh clever you, this way no one can get the better of your mind isnt it? A closed mind is a secure mind. Or so they say.

What a ridiculous drama life is. Its unrealistic and Heartbreaking. Congratulation on the dumb irony of that. It speaks but the truth. I live my life in a fairytale dear. Where problems of the world shall affect not.