Wow. I really wanna turn back the clock till the beginning of the year again. this year has really gone by so quickly. Everything i did in this year seemed impossible at this sudden moment. Friends changed, cliques changed and most of all all of our attitude.
Mostly mine.
Everything that i`ve reflected on this year that does not makes sense seems to just come into light now. Being in detention twice for wearing ankle socks and talking in class looks so immature and insignificant stuffs which i could have avoided if i had abided to the higher authority. Countless arguements with Ziteng over the the most unthinkable reasons seem to haunt me now. how i wished i could just go back now and just evaded all this simple matters.
Was so self-centered in the beginning of the year. "I must have this" and "What are my benifits" were matters going through my mine every now and then this year. Seems so correct to think that way, but i`ve never thought people could have let me see that it really is better to just be satisfied with what i have.
Never have i felt so childish and immature looking back now, the most childish peoples grew up, the most irritating peoples simmered down. And i cant think of where i`ve really matured in. Maybe i didt even matured this year, just a slightly lower voice, a tack bit of growth and maybe a slight bit of increased muscle mass. Maybe i just matured physically? Or i hope it`s just what i imagine myself to be.
I don`t wanna leave this year! it`s too special to just be left behind. i still wanna be known as a sec 2. I don`t wanna grow up. Stuck in time just like all those story-book characters. I wish the could just `replay` this year back for us. Everything replayed back just for the sake of doing it all again. This year seemed to have shortened itself and lenghtened itself at random to me. It seems as though just yesterday it was the stay-over at Mellisa`s house, but years ago when Crosslink had their music camp, maybe i am just losing my head thinking about this year.
I really really hope that this new year will be just as great as the passing year. And i am sure it will be because God is more than what we can see. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Mostly mine.
Everything that i`ve reflected on this year that does not makes sense seems to just come into light now. Being in detention twice for wearing ankle socks and talking in class looks so immature and insignificant stuffs which i could have avoided if i had abided to the higher authority. Countless arguements with Ziteng over the the most unthinkable reasons seem to haunt me now. how i wished i could just go back now and just evaded all this simple matters.
Was so self-centered in the beginning of the year. "I must have this" and "What are my benifits" were matters going through my mine every now and then this year. Seems so correct to think that way, but i`ve never thought people could have let me see that it really is better to just be satisfied with what i have.
Never have i felt so childish and immature looking back now, the most childish peoples grew up, the most irritating peoples simmered down. And i cant think of where i`ve really matured in. Maybe i didt even matured this year, just a slightly lower voice, a tack bit of growth and maybe a slight bit of increased muscle mass. Maybe i just matured physically? Or i hope it`s just what i imagine myself to be.
I don`t wanna leave this year! it`s too special to just be left behind. i still wanna be known as a sec 2. I don`t wanna grow up. Stuck in time just like all those story-book characters. I wish the could just `replay` this year back for us. Everything replayed back just for the sake of doing it all again. This year seemed to have shortened itself and lenghtened itself at random to me. It seems as though just yesterday it was the stay-over at Mellisa`s house, but years ago when Crosslink had their music camp, maybe i am just losing my head thinking about this year.
I really really hope that this new year will be just as great as the passing year. And i am sure it will be because God is more than what we can see. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
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