Looking at all the twitter quotes from 'Ispeakfemale', 'thisdamnquote', 'sodamntrue', 'zodiacfast'. And I'm thinking to myself, the world is sexist. They prefer females, cause they assume only guys are jerks and girls can hurt.

You're hurting me. But you can only hurt me because I care about you, and I wouldnt stop hurting till I know you care too. dont tell me, show me. please.

^{Matthew 18:21-22}

21Then Peter came up and said to him, "Lord, how often will my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?" ²²Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven.

Teach me to live your love, oh God, to love because You first loved me, when I was so unlovely. Teach me to love and forgive those who hurt me. Lord, teach me to carry a measurement not to the world, but instead, the yardstick of Your grace. Your grace is sufficient for me, and You are made perfect in my weakness.

Its going to be abit stranger at the end of the year this time.

- Maybe its because I wouldnt be able to get a 'Merry Christmas' and 'Happy Birthday' from the one I want to hear it most from.

- Or maybe cause I dont know how to spend Christmas and my birthday this year, with the knowledge that I have to go to work on my birthday and might have to on Christmas and Christmas Eve.

- Maybe its also because this is the first time since my level became tight, that Monica isnt spending the countdown with us. Though when we were in secondary school she always had to leave slighty before or slightly after the countdown, she was still there. Then there was the TOC countdown at East Coast, which was the funniest cause we counted down every 5 minutes just to scare surrounding people that it was midnight, and there was the youth countdown last year. Miss you, Monica. Might not be able to go to Australia with Ziteng to find you next year though :(

Hmm, Mister B. Havent been writing on you much this past year. But still, you've been holding the hourglass of my teenage years faithfully, capturing every grain of my past. Hm Mister B, so tell me. Is this year end any different from the others? :/

Makes me wonder,

Your priority, or me?

Cause I definitely choose yours.

But what about me?

But I know one thing's for sure. Thank You Lord, for choosing me, as Your priority. Blessed I am indeed. My cup is overflowing.

This is the question everyone will have asked at least once.

[But] the vast majority of people start at the wrong place.
When I finished college, I desperately wanted to know what I should do next. Find a job? Go to grad school? Where? In what field?
I prayed until I was exhausted (and God was probably a little tired of it too). I was ready to do whatever. Just send me a postcard. Put it in sky writing. But I would have gotten more clarity with a Magic 8 ball.
For a good reason.
Which I did not understand for many years. And its this:
God’s main purpose for you is not what you do. Its who you become.

Thanks Lucien.

[John Ortberg's Blog]

Thanks Liwei, your blog post spoke straight to my heart. Not how you impact, but how you've been impacted.

Going back in time to taupok Hitler once I complete this machine. Wish me luck.

ANDDDD HI MONICA!

The last week has been amazing, and when you prayed with and for me today. I felt God working so mightily through you.

ShangJun's apologetic talk which featured Gary Habermas, a Resurrection scholar, was so right. You cannot claim a logical explanation over a transformation. Some of us just read the Gospel, Paul saw the Gospel through Christ's resurrection happen, which spurred his transformation from fear into confidence. I am understanding God better through you. Thank you.